ok....first of all b4 i actually start the topic i would say its a good day today meeting her for lunch n meeting a few frends i had frm sec sch...now to the topic...
I really didnt wan to write tis topic...honestly...but tis past few days i hv been havin flashbacks of my f**k up sec sch life...i dunno y...so once n for all i will say wat i went thru...honestly ppl always see me as the nerd/geek idiot in skool last tyme...dun bulls**t wit me cos i know wat u ppl tink of me...i never really fit in even though i tried to adjust to them...everyday to skool i may smile n looked like i am not bothered but onli god,my mom n sis knows wat torture i wen thru...i had a damn depression frm sec 2(mid year) to sec 4(mid year)...2 years!! none of my frends helped me thru tat period..my academic n social life declined...n all tis was bcos of s**k up dudes who tink they r jus too "cool" n disturbing a geek/nerd like me is a trend...i am not naming who but u know who u r...day by day the tortures doesnt stop...n sum of my "frends"turned their backs on me...Sec 3 was certainly the lowest pt of my life...nothing seems to b goin my way...maybe oso i was immature in love tat tyme but i know who backstabbed me!!i will never ever forgive u for tat..even my dad wasnt giving me any sort of encouragement..i hv thought of suicide to end my bloody miserable life...wat stopped me was my faith in my religion,my mom n sis...without those 3 then i guess i would never found out wat the hell happiness means...so thk u very2 much sis n mom...i owed u 2 alot...
But i guess i hv to thanked all tis idiots who pissed me off for accelerating my maturity level..All tis s***s i went thru made me more experienced of handling tis type of stuffs...u ppl will suffer wat i went thru..i always believed in retribution..god is fair in tat..so now,i am still suffering the side effects of the depression period but it is goin off day by day..but if u irritate me now or say bad stuffs abt me it wont affect me...all i cn gather frm those words r tat mentally u r immature n a coward...fights??no thk u..violence dun take u anywhere in tis world..for now i am happy n if it pains sum ppl to see me happy then too bad...tis is my life n ur chapter has been closed...now i hv a new chapter..IF sum of u who read n disapproved of wat i wrote then too bad...all tis r true...sum of u earned my respect wen i end sec 4..i cn say all 4M3 ppl earned my respect wen sec 4 ends n i certainly missed abun's jokes n so on n playin soccer wit u guys...wit tat closes the chapter of tat part of my life n a new one has begun...i hope it would b more happiness in it for tis chapter...on tat note adios my peeps...
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