Today was fun but now i am not so happy...honestly i will start the sad first...i am dishearted abit now..y??i am sad tat watever i do has gone down the drain...i am nice to my elders n i guess tis is god's test for me...my mom is making tis rants abt "how rude i am to her or my sis rude to her"..i admit i am rude at tymes...but again i am compared to low life scums which is harsh..i hv done everything in my power to make sure she stays happy...but again she starts it..i wonder at tymes if i am a really2 low life scum then how she would b..but i am not goin to start an argument as she is my mom...i really feel like crying now...yes...crying...cos i never even thought of goin against her...i guess she never knows how much i love her...well...i will b patient..cos old ppl always do tis type of stuffs...but mom i am really2 sori..haiz...y does my life has to b tis way??y cant i find happiness for at least a full mth...sumtink always fight against my happiness level..haiz...
Ok lah...i hv wiped away my tears...now to the fun part today...it was sha's bday today n mask fitting...sha was so happy at celebrating her 17th bday...HAPPY BDAY SHA!!!hehehe...hope u like my present..hehe...n then today we oso had mask fitting...we had to b mask fit in preparation 4 any airborne diseases wen we r posted to hospital...ok lah...i am so off mood now to write so here r the pics...
Bday gerl sha n yana...my best 2 frends in skool..hehe
sha getting her surprise gift..haha
How happy she looks today tells in tis pic...hahaha
the dude who gave the surprise gift...haha..n of course mine is in there s well..
the mask fitting...damn the mask suffocates us at tymes..hehe
New pic courtesy of sha..hehe...my present btw
Me,Yana & Sha at lib...again thks to sha for the new pics
the classmates..again courtesy of sha...hehe
Alrite tats the end of pics...i am so off mood now...i was so high jus now...sumtymes i do wish tat both mom & dad would stop making tis type of rants...i never mean to do tis type of stuffs she rants n rants abt...life is hard as it is without all tis things..luckily i am able to cope wit it now unlike during my depression period..home is suppose to b the place for me to find comfort but at tymes it onli makes me feel worse..But hey..no matter wat my mom & dad rants abt i will still keep to my promise of taking care of em wen they r severely old..i hope they c tat but i guess human words nowadays r hard to believe...as long as in my heart i know i will do it then tats the best praise i cn ever hv..n yes ppl i am a very soft person on the inside esp wen it comes to tis type of stuffs..haiz...god y cant i hv straight happiness without a single feeling of sadness & sorrow??haiz...alrite lah...on tat note adios peeps..
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