Targeted Buys

I am back to posting..wohoo..almost a week since i post..haha..quite sad tat i wont b working wit the ward staffs of ward 57 anymore since attachment is done..haiz..nice working wit u ppl..make me better s a nurse..n i passed the attachment wit quite good comments..so did wanyin..haha..she definitely better than me..haha..nyways passed my exams s well wit a GPA of 2.654..so dun ask me anymore hw i performed..so gd end to a week which started in the wrong way..anyways hapi bdays to see hwee n wanyin!!wish u all in 1 post lah..lazy to put it on ur exact days..haha..

Nw since i am free..i am starting to target stuffs i wan to buy but still tinkin abt it since its god damn $$ flying off frm my bank..haha..so i am looking for help of shld i buy or shldnt i buy..hehe..here r the pics courtesy of websites..

1.PS3(courtesy of sony.com.sg)

most likely to buy..

2.Swatch watches(courtesy of swatch-shop.co.uk)

help me choose the colour n whether i shld buy or nt..haha

Alrite those tat the pics cn be found..haha..others targeted r new pair of shoes,games..still calculating the costs of tis all..i wan to buy but i wan my money to fly lesser s well..hehe..alritela..tis weekend is the weekend to get my mind straight n finally relaxing my brain after attachment..tyme to cure my zombie status..haha..alrite..on tat note..adios peeps..

a calmer post

A much more calmer n sensible post today..ytd post was simply pure anger frm me..tis post is

abt my explaination...i dun mind being rejected..i hv been in tat situation b4..but the thing tat i

cant take was the "intimate"moments we had n at the same tyme u had other thoughts abt

another dude..wats up wit tat??u shld hv told me..i wouldnt hv done it..well i am nt goin to talk

much more of tis cos the more i say the more pain i will feel..

well tis is my storylife..nw tell me ppl..hw am i suppose to trust another human being when all my life i am seeing tis type of shits happening??i give ppl alot of trusts since i started poly n hopin none would shoved it back up my ass..a few has done..the most painful one is tis one..guess being nice n gd to ppl aint goin to get me far..i care abt ppl's feelings more than mine n sumhow ppl overlooked mine..bravo!!more painful lessons for me to learn..i guessed ppl used me s a puppet to fill up the temporary gaps in their lives..tis is another low point in my life which has aldy seen many despite at a tender age of 17..but ehh.nobody gives the fuck of wat i feel anymore..all tat consolation/praise tat ppl say to me feels like bullshit to me cos i began to learn wat sweet things ppl say r nt true..y do ppl lie n played wit sumone's hope wen they know it is nt possible??ppl r fake.all the smiles r nt wat they actually feel or mean..everythin frm the past week is falling into their place n the puzzle is almost complete..i am nw seeing the full pic..i am nt angry anymore jus disappointed..disappointed at the turn of events n hw sumone i trusted so much is the one tat has done it..it will take me a long tyme to recover frm tis..lucky for me i still hv my family..the start of depression period has began..

VENTING OF FRUSTRATION

I shall post today to vent my frustration beyond anyones imagination..twice n i mean twice i hv been played...I DUN TRUST ANYONE NW!!!i hv been nice to ppl n tis is hw they repay me??i dun care wat ppl feel anymore..who cares wat they feel??could hv left it in a gd note but nooo...i jus realise i hv been played again.y god does it onli happen to me??maybe sum advices r rite..f**k wit commitments n love n instead hv more flings n dates...tat way less pain n more hapiness for me..my head is spinning out of control nw..luckily i hv been in tis situation b4..no more super hard depression...but i jus feel like bangin sumtink to make it break to reali released tis couped up anger nw..dun care anymore...i am numb beyond reasoning...no more of tis!!U PPL WAN ENTERTAINMENT FRM ME FRM NW ON CN GO N F**K OFF!!!find ur own way..i am jus simply humbled by wat has jus transpired..I WAN TO B SELFISH N TINK OF MY OWN HAPPINESS N NT OTHERS!!!F**k it!!!i dun trust anymore freaks in tis world anymore..all take my trust n shoved it back up my ass...no one cn b trusted..no one!!i am one red hot blooded human nw so pls jus take ur nonsense away frm me nw unless u cn offer me solid consolation.cant believed tat i fell for it for the 2nd tyme..all tis while..i am jus blind..thought tat was it..but i guess i dun know u tat well to know wat type of person u r..n to those who tink i am wrong i am cool wit it..but dun find trouble wit me cos i shall break 1 promise n no matter if u r a guy or a gerl i will simply whacked u to a different planet..no more mr nice guy wit ppl anymore..SO DUN GET INVOLVED in anyway!!nt even pyschologically!!b professional n stay away frm tis..i will n i will break the promise of nt hittin a gerl if any gerls get involved..

The "off the mood" post

tis past 2 days hv been well mentally torturing for me..i am nt goin to say wat..so i will go to talk abt attachment..n its hell s well..monday was the most disappointing day for me s i totally lost focus and looked lost n blur s sumtink was bugging my mind pretty badly..felt and performed better after the break after slapping myself to get myself in sum sort of mood for attachment..today..definitely better s i sumhow managed to get myself "into the mood"and put my personal stuffs aside..but wat the hell ppl..the smell of the s**t nearly make me vomit..seriously.it was the 6th tyme i seen a patient s**t n the first tyme i nearly lost it..8 more days for me to hold on to b s professional s i cn b4 i cn finally let go n breakdown..i wan it to last n i am praying hard tat it would last..i dunno wat else to do..but emotionally i am nw torn even though nothing is certain yet..haiz...facial expressions,humour n words cant describe hw low i am feeling nw..dun wan to talk much more of tis for a reason i wont say in my blog..on tat note adios peeps..i will end wit a quote for everyone to tink abt..

"Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion."