a calmer post

A much more calmer n sensible post today..ytd post was simply pure anger frm me..tis post is

abt my explaination...i dun mind being rejected..i hv been in tat situation b4..but the thing tat i

cant take was the "intimate"moments we had n at the same tyme u had other thoughts abt

another dude..wats up wit tat??u shld hv told me..i wouldnt hv done it..well i am nt goin to talk

much more of tis cos the more i say the more pain i will feel..

well tis is my storylife..nw tell me ppl..hw am i suppose to trust another human being when all my life i am seeing tis type of shits happening??i give ppl alot of trusts since i started poly n hopin none would shoved it back up my ass..a few has done..the most painful one is tis one..guess being nice n gd to ppl aint goin to get me far..i care abt ppl's feelings more than mine n sumhow ppl overlooked mine..bravo!!more painful lessons for me to learn..i guessed ppl used me s a puppet to fill up the temporary gaps in their lives..tis is another low point in my life which has aldy seen many despite at a tender age of 17..but ehh.nobody gives the fuck of wat i feel anymore..all tat consolation/praise tat ppl say to me feels like bullshit to me cos i began to learn wat sweet things ppl say r nt true..y do ppl lie n played wit sumone's hope wen they know it is nt possible??ppl r fake.all the smiles r nt wat they actually feel or mean..everythin frm the past week is falling into their place n the puzzle is almost complete..i am nw seeing the full pic..i am nt angry anymore jus disappointed..disappointed at the turn of events n hw sumone i trusted so much is the one tat has done it..it will take me a long tyme to recover frm tis..lucky for me i still hv my family..the start of depression period has began..